Double post cause I feel like to
Hey blog. It's me, Jia.
Sometimes I think about how fucked up my life has been. I was happy. I was excited over every single thing. I was carefree, dealing with anxiety I could say that I had a carefree life. I thought life was gonna get better. But look at me now. I've nowhere near better. I'm worse. All the depressing songs I've listened to years ago became reality. I could relate. I literally cried when I hear those songs. They made every sense in the world. Hit every nerves, every points, joints in my body.
I'm crazy. Literally. Crazy. Diagnosed with illness. No offense to cancer patients but my illness now, if I can choose other illnesses I'd choose cancer.
Talking about cancer, I wanna talk about Jeremy. Sometimes I feel jealous that he got to passed in such condition where everybody prayed for him, he passed at the holiest place on earth, everybody loved him. Maybe that's why I thought of him every now and then. But these past few months, I had a hard time getting him out of my mind. I'm obsessed with everything related to him. Unhealthy obsession.
My drugs are kicking in right now.... I'm dozing off. The suckiest part of this illness is I had hard time sleeping. Good that the meds helped me getting the sleep I need. I'll continue about Jeremy some other time. Adios.
Sometimes I think about how fucked up my life has been. I was happy. I was excited over every single thing. I was carefree, dealing with anxiety I could say that I had a carefree life. I thought life was gonna get better. But look at me now. I've nowhere near better. I'm worse. All the depressing songs I've listened to years ago became reality. I could relate. I literally cried when I hear those songs. They made every sense in the world. Hit every nerves, every points, joints in my body.
I'm crazy. Literally. Crazy. Diagnosed with illness. No offense to cancer patients but my illness now, if I can choose other illnesses I'd choose cancer.
Talking about cancer, I wanna talk about Jeremy. Sometimes I feel jealous that he got to passed in such condition where everybody prayed for him, he passed at the holiest place on earth, everybody loved him. Maybe that's why I thought of him every now and then. But these past few months, I had a hard time getting him out of my mind. I'm obsessed with everything related to him. Unhealthy obsession.
My drugs are kicking in right now.... I'm dozing off. The suckiest part of this illness is I had hard time sleeping. Good that the meds helped me getting the sleep I need. I'll continue about Jeremy some other time. Adios.
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